BostonLyme Support Group

I've had several inquiries about a support group in Boston. One of the reasons I wanted to have the "Under Our Skin" event was to see if their was interest. My contact with others living with Lyme has been predominantly online, as the nearest group is somewhere like Reading. That's not feasible for someone who doesn't drive. Nor is the time it would take feasible for someone who only has a few functioning hours a day.

So, yes, I would like to launch a support group in Boston. If you're interested, please post a comment here. If we have enough people, we can talk logistics (how often, where, etc.)

I would be happy to host a group in my home. We just need to figure out if that's a good enough location for enough people to make for a vibrant group.

Please let me know what you think.

What I Had Planned to Say

Today, I spoke at the MFA. It was after the screening of "Under Our Skin". I had written down what I wanted to say, but there was no podium. And I'm not used to speaking in public, so I couldn't manage speaking and holding sheets of paper for viewing. I'm not sure what I actually managed to say, but here is the text of what I had planned:

Thank you for coming and thank you to my friends, Lynn Parisi and Pam Wylie, for putting this together.

Ok. I’m not a public speaker and under normal circumstances this would make me very nervous.  Somehow, the old adage “picture your audience in underwear” has never been useful for me. I’m sure you’re all quite lovely in your underwear, but I’m not sure how that the kind of distraction is supposed to help me focus!

Truth is, in coming out and speaking in public about my travails, I feel exposed. Being at the most vulnerable time in my adult life, this is certainly not comfortable.

Yet, even as this disease profoundly impacts my life, wearing me down, depriving me of my ability to work and be the energetic, active mother I want to be, there is enough of the tigress left in me to want to fight against the injustice of what’s happening to Lyme patients. If my story and what I have learned can help even one person avoid what I have had to endure, its worth it to me. If nothing else, at least I can be of service in this way.

The details of my story are similar to what you’ve just seen in the film. I went two years without a diagnosis after we first suspected I might have Lyme.

At one point, I sat in a doctor’s office describing episodes of intense confusion, getting lost going to work, suddenly not knowing what knitting needles and yarn were doing in my hands. Knitting was my profession. I jokingly called it Knitzheimers, but it was no joke. It was happening more and more, along with other serious cognitive problems. I was scared and so were the people around me.

She said I was having some kind of post-traumatic psychiatric breakdown. In my mid-40s with no history of psychiatric issues. I replied that she was a scary woman, inappropriately making psychiatric diagnoses. Not surprisingly, we fired each other that day.

I later learned that I was having partial complex seizures due to a serious case of Advanced Neurological Lyme Disease. Even with definitive tests, when I went back to one of my doctors to report the findings, his response was, “You may have just been diagnosed with something that doesn’t exist.”

Now, all patients who face life-threatening, debilitating or chronic illness go through their own odyssey of  physical and emotional challenges.
As a patient with Lyme, though, you get bonus challenges.  You face things no patient should have to experience: your symptoms doubted, your diagnosis invalidated, and your treatment denied. There you are with a disease that brings profound exhaustion, persistent pain and cognitive impairment and you have to fight the system to get care. You’ve likely never been less able to fight anything at all.

Because you didn’t receive the care you needed, things get worse. More complicated. In my case, this means chronic auto-immune disorders.

How many of you have a coin in your pocket or purse? Please take one out and toss it. Heads you have Lyme Disease. Tails you don’t.

As a patient, it has been hard to understand how a test that is 55% inaccurate can be used as The Gatekeeper for diagnosis. This needs to change.

As a patient, it has been hard to face doctors who say your symptoms aren’t real. This needs to change.

As a patient, it has been depressing to have doctors tell me they can only give me 20 minutes and have no time to research my case. This has to change

As a patient, it has been overwhelmingly tragic to see that, despite the mounds of research  and case histories that demonstrate how Lyme and/or complications can persist well beyond the proscribed 4 weeks of antibiotics, insurance companies can deny you any further treatment. The control that the insurance industry has over how doctors dispense medicine has to change.

As a patient, it has been shocking to learn that publicly funded research can be privately owned and controlled.  That those given the voice of authority about a disease can have contracts with insurance companies who seek ways to deny coverage. That they can refer to their own work, to the exlusion of others. That they can be patent holders in the field they are presiding over. The influence that personal profits can have over how research is funded and reported has to change.

As a human being, I’m appalled that other human beings can deny the pain and suffering of others. That they can say, “Antibiotics are too high of a risk” to patients who face total debilitation and death. We give those who suffer other diseases the right to make that choice for themselves. My father has multiple myeloma. He has never been denied any treatment they thought had a chance to help, regardless of the risks. Those decisions have always been left to him and his doctors. Why are Lyme patients denied the simple decency of a fighting chance?

I’m not a fan of antibiotics. My 9 year old daughter has never had any. Before being diagnosed with Lyme, I hadn’t had any in over 15 years. Perhaps, with more research, we’ll find better, more effective ways to treat Lyme. But, for now, we are not being offered anything else. So, if this is all there is to give us hope, why is anyone allowed to deny us this?

In the bigger picture, this is not just about Lyme Disease. It’s about a profit-driven health care system. For-profit businesses are, by law, required to prioritize shareholder dividends over anything else. When it comes to health care, this is simply inappropriate. You pay for health insurance, but your insurer doesn’t care about you or whether you are actually getting health care. This has to change. Our health care system is not broken because people don’t have insurance. It’s broken because patients don’t have assurance. Assurance that when they need it, the system will work for them.

For all that I have to complain about, I’m lucky. Yes, I’m in pain, my brain no longer functions as it did and I am profoundly tired. I expend a lot energy to camouflage when I’m with people and I can fake it for a few hours at a time. This is no way to live. Particularly when it wasn’t necessary. Yet, as I say, I am lucky. I have caring people around me. I am supported by people who have no obligation to do so. My daughter’s father has been remarkable in his willingness to provide me, his ex,  shelter in this storm. A storm we thought would be temporary but is seemingly interminable. But I have a roof over my head, food to eat and a wonderful community of friends.

There are tens of thousands of me around the country. Of the estimated 300,000 new cases of Lyme this year, about 25% of them will end up being chronically ill. That’s 75,000 people. Many, many of whom will end up unemployed and homeless, as they are bankrupted by trying to pay for their own health care while being profoundly debilitated.

It doesn’t have to be this way. At the very least, we can protect doctors who are trying to help. And require that insurance cover treatment that is ordered by a licensed doctor. CT and RI have already passed laws to do so. MA is, hopefully, voting on a similar bill this Fall. My odyssey is what it is now. But there is no reason that any more people have to face this horrible disease with the same horrifying medical system nightmare. Please call your state reps and senators and urge them to support legislation relating to Lyme Disease.

Thank you.

On TV at BNN

Yesterday, I was interviewed by Chris Lovett of Boston Neighborhood News for their nightly news program:



Lyme Disease Events in Boston from Chris Lovett on Vimeo.

In the Local News

I was interviewed last week about our upcoming event. I had no idea that it would end up online. So, for those who don't get the West Roxbury Transcript, here is a link:

http://www.wickedlocal.com/roslindale/news/lifestyle/health/x1307076102/Roslindale-woman-battles-against-Lyme-disease

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